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Check out the video on the website above. If you haven't heard of the keating five yet, you will by tomorrow because the Obama campaign just released it. Pass it on to as many people as you can. It's important for all voters to see what kind of international economic crisis McCain would be putting our world in. He admits that he is "not good" with economics but really, I think he just tries to avoid the economy all together because he knows if he gets someone else to deal with it/speak about it, maybe his corrupt past won't come up. (Too late.) And you can get away with a hell of a lot more if you have someone else speaking for you who doesn't have ties to one of the biggest scandals in our country's history.

I'm really glad the Obama campaign is releasing this now. Everyone thinks McCain is the good guy and Palin is just his evil running mate but now the truths are coming out about McCain and I'm realizing that we CANNOT have him running our country. Its not only Sarah Palin that worries me now, its McCain himself. I'm praying that America will see how much McCain will cause our economy to collapse (more than it already is) because I might have to leave the country if he becomes president.

Ramblings

Every day I'm reminded that America is not nice. You stop a little faster to let someone turn in front of you because there's a huge line of cars behind you, and two cars honk unnecessarily and speed off on the side of your car. And when you hold the door for four people who are all in a hurry, and not one says thank you, its a little discouraging to be so nice. When all you want to do is just go on a ride in the valley and relax, but you're being followed by a beat-up truck on your ass with some redneck pissed off you're doing the speed limit, its hard to relax.

I was just rambling. Its been a long day. I got screwed over a lot and it's hard not to feel like the world's out to get me. But, still, I did three hours of work tonight and I feel good about it. I really want/need to do well this semester.

Why I Hate Politics.

McCain picked his running mate today. She's been a governor in Alaska for two years. She describes herself as "the average hockey mom". I read this in the New York Times article about McCain's choice for vice president:

Then, making an explicit appeal to Ms. Clinton’s disappointed supporters, she said, “It turns out that the women in America aren’t finished yet, and we can shatter that glass ceiling.”

What the fuck. This is why I hate politics. Its so corrupt. McCain knows damn well that he only picked her because shes a woman and she will appeal to all of Clinton's old supporters who REFUSE to support Obama because they are so die-hard about Hillary. I'm so angry because its threatening to Obama's lead and so extremely obvious that he only picked her because of her gender. If this weren't such a diverse race, McCain would've gone with anyone but a woman. I hope that Clinton's fans are offended by this and do not give in to McCain's plan of wooing them with his beautiful, "average", middle-aged vice president. I just looked up some info on her and even if she were fairly picked, I wouldn't think she's ready. She has no international experience and hasn't been involved in higher politics for very long. This is a joke.

Don't Ask Why

Ask What.

So I came home from PACAA and was given some of the worst news I could imagine receiving. I don't want to go into specifics because I'm not too sure who reads this and not many people have been told yet. But I was devastated. I cried my heart out on the phone with Gill and then Sean called right after I hung up and came over without asking or me telling him to. We sat on the benches that are by the pool and he held me while I cried in disbelief.

One of the first things I said to him was, "I just don't understand why this is happening. She doesn't deserve this, our family has done so much to try and make things better and I just don't know why this would happen when everything was finally starting to get better." Sean answered that with, "You can't ask 'Why?' but 'What?' By asking 'What?' the situation becomes all that much less frustrating and you can start looking in a better direction."

So today I started looking at what I can do. Its helped, too. Even though I don't know exactly what we're going to do, I feel better than I looked into it.

Tonight I'm going to Chestertown with my Mom. Kristen is already down there. I guess I'm going to end this here. I don't really know what else I can say.

Look At All The Lonely People

When I was younger, my favorite song was Eleanor Rigby by The Beatles. I remember listening to it on a tape (ha!) on repeat. I had no clue what it was about or how depressing it is. I think its kind of funny to look back on.

With My Arms Out To My Side

Life can be pretty...unexpected? shocking? I'm sort of at a loss for words right now.

The past three weeks have been the best weeks that I've had in the past ten months, at least. I don't know if it always shows on the outside, but I constantly feel happy and excited to be alive. It can mostly be attributed to Sean, who I haven't talked about much on here. I don't think I've ever met another person who has a perspective on life that is so similar to mine and for similar reasons. It didn't take long for me to pick up on that part of him because he communicates so well, another really important thing to me. I could go on but it just comes down to the fact that he makes me so happy. He motivates me to want to go back to West Chester this fall and work my ass off. No one, not even myself, could do that before. Its pretty amazing.

I don't know how to say this because bad things are always harder for me to put into words. We received some bad news that has me really worried. I was told last night and still haven't soaked in the shock. My head is so confused. I'm used to being so content and worry-free now, so its strange to feel such sadness.

I like to look at this as a blessing. If I were in the state I was still in when I left school this past Spring, or even in the beginning of June when I still didn't feel back to myself, I don't think I would be able to look at the bad news with much light. I like to think that if there is such thing as fate, a guardian angel or a higher power, that it was planned to send me these extreme emotions on separate ends of the spectrum because they will balance each other out. Because if nothing bad ever happened, the good things would lose their worth. There cannot be right without wrong, good without bad. Balance is everything.