Beliz, Concerts, Apartment :o)

Only seven more days til spring break.. I'm so excited. My passport came in the mail last week. While we're in Beliz we are doing this cave adventure trip where we walk about a half an hour to a cave then float in tubes through the cave for four hours. It's named the most beautiful cave in the world. I can't wait, I've never been so excited for a vacation.

The month of February has been crazy for me. Last Tuesday Sammy and I saw the Spice Girls because I won tickets on Q102. I ran into Dan Benzing from leaders. We might be going to the J.Holiday/Trey Songz concert next Tuesday but I need to come up with the $35. I'm so broke. Then March 28th we're seeing Lil Wayne at the Liacouras Center. Hopefully we'll go to DMB over the summer, but so far this year has been pretty good with concerts :)

Yesterday we found out that we got an apartment on south campus. I'm SO excited to have our own bathroom and kitchen. I can't wait to cook actual meals instead of the shitty dining hall food that makes my stomach hurt. Also, I'll have my car down there so I can probably start work again. Over the summer I'll probably take summer courses either here or at Wilmington or Del Tech. I'm going to try to get some tough classes out of the way. The only problem is PACAA would take up a week of classes. I'm going to ask the University if it would be possible to notify my professors at the beginning of the summer semester and still be able to make up any work I missed. If not, then I won't take the classes.

I'm going to take a nap. I only got 2 hours of sleep because I needed to finish my research paper. Someday soon I'll update about something important! ;)

Fear

I was just reading about a young girl who died of cancer and it got me really emotional. Sometimes I can read those things and not get upset about Liam and other times it hits me as if it were Liam who I am reading about.

Just thinking about how tomorrow is not guaranteed and that everyone will eventually die makes me want to do the things I'm too scared to do. Whether it be expressing how I feel to the person I love with no fear of being hurt or sky diving even though I have an intense fear of heights...I just want to do it right now. All of it. And I wish that tomorrow I wouldn't wake up and be back to my old self where the fear has taken over.