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"Life does not have to be perfect to be wonderful." -Annette Funicello

It's been exactly two years since Christine got into her car accident. It was a rough night on Friday and I cried like I hadn't in months. I miss her so, so much. I really want to laugh with her and be around her. Its really getting hard.

Liam's 8th birthday would be a week from now. Its just all around a very hard time.

But, life does not have to be perfect to be wonderful. Life doesn't even have to be good to be wonderful. Because life IS wonderful. Its much easier to be happy if I remember that. If I die at a young age, I wouldn't want anyone to hold back in life because they were grieving over me. I would want to shout to everyone, "LIVE! You are so lucky to have this chance." So, thats what I'm trying my hardest to do. I'm taking in all of the wonderful things life has to offer.

Things I Love About Life Right Now:
1.) I have a car! Its a Toyota Echo and it reminds me of a spaceship on the inside! I love it to death even though its a little beat up. I'm just so thankful to have a car again. (Its been 11 months!)
2.) Valley rides / Valley Gardens
3.) My best friends
4.) Beautiful weather
5.) A really great new friend.
6.) Feeling healthier each day
7.) Not having classes
8.) A higher level of believing in myself. I know I really can do anything I put my mind to.

Quick Recap

Last weekend was great. We got a lot done at staff training and I'm really happy with how our group works together. :) I think we have a lot to offer P.ACAA 42 and I'm excited for us to (hopefully) show it.




This weeks been kind of....boring. I don't like boring days because those are the ones when I have no motivation to do anything productive and just sit around thinking. Right now is not the time to be doing that. It's one of the hardest times of the year for me because in just a few more days it will be the day Christine had her car accident, TWO years ago. Two years.. Its so hard for me to believe.

Tuesday I was at S.aladworks about to go on my break and I realized that I'm working back at the same place I worked when Christine got in her accident. I was working at S.aladworks when I found out about the whole incident. Its hard to be there right now because it makes it so much easier to remember that day.

I'm trying to stay positive. Thinking positive has gotten me through so much that I don't see why I should stop. Maybe its good that I'm back at S.aladworks because maybe if I work myself through remembering that day more, I can eventually come to terms with it and start accepting my past a little better.

Kristen and Em are on their way here! I'm excited because we need a little more life around here. They're bringing Sydney AND Symon (cat). Should be interesting.. haha

I am so blessed.

Its definitely time that I have a real update because my life right now definitely deserves it. Things are GREAT!
While Kristen and Em were home I took them to Valley Gardens because neither of them had been there and I knew they would enjoy it. So we went and Kris got some really good pics with her name camera. Then last Wednesday me, Kristen, Em, my mom and Dan Glavin went to Dave Matthews!! It was awesome! We "tailgated" in Kristen's new car, taught my mom how to play Kings and danced in ponchos. What could be better than that? Really though, the concert was so much fun and I'm so glad I got to go with people I love.

Drum Roll Please.....
Yesterday was THE best day of my life so far.

Gill, Matty and I went canoeing down the Brandywine! Gill and I have been planning this trip and I must say, we did a great job of planning it. We had everything we needed on the canoe with us. It was SUCH a beautiful day yesterday. It was the hottest day we've had yet this summer (until today) but on the river it was perfect. We just sat back on the canoe, drank cold beers and took in the amazing scenery the Brandywine River has to offer. Even though the river water may be polluted from all the Delaware *cough*DuPont*cough* chemicals, it was still the most beautiful sight. The sides of the river and lined with tall trees and beautiful flowers. We even saw a bull on the side of the river!! I just don't know any other words to describe this trip but amazing. I really felt as if I were living my life to the absolute fullest and that's definitely a great feeling in its self. It took us about five and a half hours to get to Smith Bridge but thats pretty good timing considering how little we paddled. There were parts of the river that were deep enough that we couldn't stand and we would all just swim on the side of our boat because the water felt so great!
Once we finally got to the end mark, our canoe rental place picked us up and took us back to our car. We then drove straight to Valley Gardens in our soaked clothes and with our river washed hair looking like valley junkies haha! We sat at our favorite spot and did more of our favorite thing. Then we went to Charcoal Pit, got take out milkshakes and drove to Gill's grandparent's house for a BBQ! It was me, Gill, Matty, Gill's mom, my Mom, Nan and Pop. I couldn't have asked for a better meal after the long day.
I think if I were asked to describe what a perfect day would be for me, this would be EXACTLY it. I feel so lucky and blessed to have such a beautiful river near me, friends and family who I love to death and great memories like this one. I couldn't ask for more. :)

Just A Quote

"Don't wonder why people go crazy..wonder why they don't. In the face of all we can lose in a day, in an instant, wonder what the hell it is that makes us hold it together." -Greys Anatomy

I like this quote a lot. Sometimes its hard to believe that we can adapt to change and loss as well as we do.