Look At All The Lonely People

When I was younger, my favorite song was Eleanor Rigby by The Beatles. I remember listening to it on a tape (ha!) on repeat. I had no clue what it was about or how depressing it is. I think its kind of funny to look back on.

With My Arms Out To My Side

Life can be pretty...unexpected? shocking? I'm sort of at a loss for words right now.

The past three weeks have been the best weeks that I've had in the past ten months, at least. I don't know if it always shows on the outside, but I constantly feel happy and excited to be alive. It can mostly be attributed to Sean, who I haven't talked about much on here. I don't think I've ever met another person who has a perspective on life that is so similar to mine and for similar reasons. It didn't take long for me to pick up on that part of him because he communicates so well, another really important thing to me. I could go on but it just comes down to the fact that he makes me so happy. He motivates me to want to go back to West Chester this fall and work my ass off. No one, not even myself, could do that before. Its pretty amazing.

I don't know how to say this because bad things are always harder for me to put into words. We received some bad news that has me really worried. I was told last night and still haven't soaked in the shock. My head is so confused. I'm used to being so content and worry-free now, so its strange to feel such sadness.

I like to look at this as a blessing. If I were in the state I was still in when I left school this past Spring, or even in the beginning of June when I still didn't feel back to myself, I don't think I would be able to look at the bad news with much light. I like to think that if there is such thing as fate, a guardian angel or a higher power, that it was planned to send me these extreme emotions on separate ends of the spectrum because they will balance each other out. Because if nothing bad ever happened, the good things would lose their worth. There cannot be right without wrong, good without bad. Balance is everything.

BRETT DENNEN!

I LOVE SUMMER! Last night me, Gill, Kristen, Sean and Matt saw the Brett Dennen/John Mayer/Colbie Caillat concert! We really only wanted to see Brett Dennen but John Mayer turned out to be pretty amazing. Last time I saw him I wasn't as impressed but he covered so many amazing songs and jammed out a lot more. It was awesome! So many hilarious things happened... Kristen bought two beers and brought them back and handed me one. Right as I was sipping it, two security guards came over and said, "We're gonna need to see some ID". Being wasted, I turned to Kristen and said, "Kristen hand me your wallet." So she opened it up and showed me where her driver's license was. I took it out, handed it to the guy and he stared at it for a few seconds, handed it to his partner who nodded his head and said, "You're good. Enjoy." Then we all started rolling on the grass laughing as I chugged half of my "legal" beer. hahaha The concert was amazing! I had such a good time with people I love.

The picture at the top is obviously from Post Secret. I liked it a lot!

4th of July!

The past three days have been three of the best days of my year....maybe even longer than that. I haven't been this genuinely happy in so long! IT FEELS GREAT!

and it's fourth of july! i love this holiday! There are bbqs, beer, fireworks....it doesn't get much better than that! I'm going up to west chester tonight w/ my friends then around one were prob gonna bbq at sean's. :)

On a more serious note, today I'm thinking about all of the people who live in countries without the freedom we have in the States. Although there is still much change to be made in our country, we have progressed so much further than more than 3/4s of the world and we should be very thankful and proud of that. I am proud to be an American even if I strongly dislike our current president! But, change is in the near future. Yes, we can!!